Reformed Theology A struggle I have been having.  Calvinism

A struggle I have been having.

Reformed Theology A struggle I have been having.  Calvinism
A struggle I have been having.

I struggle with believing that I am part of the elect.

I have read a little bit of Calvin's writings (mostly bits and pieces of Calvin's Institutes), and see that he believed that the unforgivable sin is obstinate disbelief in the face of knowledge regarding the power of the Holy Spirit, something I can agree with at least at the moment. Even so, I still feel like a dirty wretch for the things I have done in my life. I feel as though God would not elect someone like I was, even though I have tried to and have changed many of my ways. It makes me feel as though I don't deserve happiness in life. It's something that has me feeling down.

It doesn't help that I am struggling to find my way as far as denominations go. I struggle between the Reformed faith and the other Protestant traditions. This is part of the reason I don't have a church currently (also partly because of my aforementioned struggles.)

I came from Catholicism, though I never actually was baptized, and am still unbaptized. I had trouble really believing in it after awhile (I don't really see evidence for a lot of it's traditions in Scriptures.) I have to admit though, it offered a much easier road for me than Protestantism does, I guess because I took comfort in myself and my works. I sometimes consider going back or maybe joining Orthodoxy, but I always come back to Protestantism, at least so far.

I guess what I am asking for is prayers and encouragement. This kind of stuff has gotten me quite down for a little while now. I need to build up my confidence in my Forgiveness and my Salvation.

Thank you for reading.

I struggle with believing that I am part of the elect.I have read a little bit of Calvin’s writings (mostly bits and pieces of Calvin’s Institutes), and see that he believed that the unforgivable sin is obstinate disbelief in the face of knowledge regarding the power of the Holy Spirit, something I can agree with at least at the moment. Even so, I still feel like a dirty wretch for the things I have done in my life. I feel as though God would not elect someone like I was, even though I have tried to and have changed many of my ways. It makes me feel as though I don’t deserve happiness in life. It’s something that has me feeling down.It doesn’t help that I am struggling to find my way as far as denominations go. I struggle between the Reformed faith and the other Protestant traditions. This is part of the reason I don’t have a church currently (also partly because of my aforementioned struggles.)I came from Catholicism, though I never actually was baptized, and am still unbaptized. I had trouble really believing in it after awhile (I don’t really see evidence for a lot of it’s traditions in Scriptures.) I have to admit though, it offered a much easier road for me than Protestantism does, I guess because I took comfort in myself and my works. I sometimes consider going back or maybe joining Orthodoxy, but I always come back to Protestantism, at least so far.I guess what I am asking for is prayers and encouragement. This kind of stuff has gotten me quite down for a little while now. I need to build up my confidence in my Forgiveness and my Salvation.Thank you for reading.
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