I have become prideful. Please pray for me to accept my current circumstances with humility.
I have been trying to get what I consider a somewhat dignified job for my age (35) for almost a year now with no luck. And all my money is now gone. I moved in with my mom to save money while looking for a new job.
I'm completely broke now and had to rely on my mom who is a pensioner with a very small state grant. As you can imagine this is not the right thing for me to do, she has very little and although she has no problem with helping me out, we have been living in poverty hoping and praying our food will last through the month. I can't let that happen next month too and it's my pride that has been keeping me from working…
South Africa has an unemployment rate of 28%, yes more than a quarter of the population is unemployed, it's a national crisis coupled with the country going into a recession last week means unemployment will rise. So my only option is waitering. I hate it and feel like it is beneath me to be a waiter at this stage of my life. I never imagined I'd be working for tips (few restaurants here pay you a salary) and it bothers me that I have been too proud to humble myself and wait tables. So please pray for me.
There is a positive side to this experience. I see now that I had become selfish with the money I had, giving what I could easily afford to the church and spending most of it on my friends or material things. Giving away second hand clothes to someone in need and money to charity is fine, but I never made a real impact in someones life. Like I said my money has only now run out after 11 months, few people have that amount of money saved up. I was blessed and I'm ashamed of myself for not doing anything substantial to help those who really needed it.
I don't want my mom to go through this again, so please pray for God to help me do this since I feel like I also have quite a bit of anxiety now from not working for such a long time and from the frustration of not being able to have land a good job.
Thanks in advance to those of you who will say a prayer for me.
Mag die Here jou God jou huis seën met vrede en jou geloof versterk deur Sy genade ! Amen.
Submitted by LightInDarkness22