Reformed Theology Please, I need all of your prayers.  Calvinism

Please, I need all of your prayers.

Reformed Theology Please, I need all of your prayers.  Calvinism
Please, I need all of your prayers.

So, my entire life I've had issues with intrusive thoughts and obsessing about things. It has literally been every horrible thing. I'm horrified and disgusted by the world. I have obsessive compulsive tendencies and anxiety. It's like I can't shut my brain up. I've posted in other subreddits about it.
I have a family and people who love me. About four days ago I started obsessing about everyone being pedophiles and then I started saying if everyone is a pedophile, AM I? And I know I'm not. I've done this before with thinking I had a terminal illness, thinking I could be a murderer. These are common themes in ocd. I've done this before. And my obsessive thinking patterns are definitely influenced by watching crimes shows and stuff. None of it is real. I'm just so tired of my brain. I'm going to see a physiatrist on Monday. I've talked to my husband and my family about this.
I just want prayer. My MIL told me to just ask God to help me see myself as God sees me. And ask for the strength to get through this.

And I'm so angry because every several months when I get a new theme for my ocd the anxiety is so debilitating I can't even pray.

And if any of you have any positive stories about recovering from mental illness please feel free to share. I've definitely battled with this sort of thing since I was a small child. 🙁

So, my entire life I've had issues with intrusive thoughts and obsessing about things. It has literally been every horrible thing. I'm horrified and disgusted by the world. I have obsessive compulsive tendencies and anxiety. It's like I can't shut my brain up. I've posted in other subreddits about it.
I have a family and people who love me. About four days ago I started obsessing about everyone being pedophiles and then I started saying if everyone is a pedophile, AM I? And I know I'm not. I've done this before with thinking I had a terminal illness, thinking I could be a murderer. These are common themes in ocd. I've done this before. And my obsessive thinking patterns are definitely influenced by watching crimes shows and stuff. None of it is real. I'm just so tired of my brain. I'm going to see a physiatrist on Monday. I've talked to my husband and my family about this.
I just want prayer. My MIL told me to just ask God to help me see myself as God sees me. And ask for the strength to get through this.

And I'm so angry because every several months when I get a new theme for my ocd the anxiety is so debilitating I can't even pray.

And if any of you have any positive stories about recovering from mental illness please feel free to share. I've definitely battled with this sort of thing since I was a small child. 🙁

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Submitted March 18, 2017 at 08:27AM by nasb14